Unwritten Days

Well I haven't written in the longest time ever because I have been so busy ever since the month of December started until the 17th of January 2014.

During the last two months I was engaged as the coordinator in the winter camp that was held for children called "Camp Raven" which was organized for the children of the three armed forces (RBG, RBA, RBP) here in Thimphu. It was a wonderful experience for the children as they got to learn and engage with the 3 (2 female, 1 male) Thai dance instructors who came to teach the children different forms of dance but mostly hip hop and contemporary style of dancing which they performed at the end of the 2 week camp. The children took interest in sports, arts, dance, soap making as various volunteers arrived at the locations to help each camp grow in their talents or spark some interest in the children.

Rock Climbing, Art classes, musicians, actors took time from their daily schedule to come spend at least an hour with the children engaging them with fun activities or spoke about positive things in life. Each camp had their own picnic where students spent the day playing games, winning challenges, singing, dancing, cooking and then eating their own cooked food along with the instructors and the resource persons.

The two weeks passed by very quickly that it was already time for the students to receive their certificates and showcase a set of talents in Changlimithang to HRH Prince Jigyel Wangchuck who graced the occasion. As per royal command the children had yet another picnic but this time all three camps together at Parizampa with His Royal Highness with planned activities and a gala lunch. It went well and everyone went home happy, pleased, fully tummy and having experienced a game they hadn't been exposed to.

Overall, until the 17th of January I was so busy organizing these events, getting the bills cleared up and making endless notesheets for approval which was time consuming as there were many things happening at office too.

Then came 18th January, where I packed my suitcase and hopped on the plane to Singapore for a well deserved annual winter break.

Solitude in Realization

They say it gets easier with time
But its barely been weeks
Lost and hopeless
I really thought:
It would be better than this!!!

With every moment gone
Another tough battle prepares
A fight of solitude and sadness
But this time round
it is with myself, myself alone...

Night after night
Dogs cry into the darkness
Lights flash before my eyes
And I'm awake
Unable to fall sleep again...

Not wanting to cry
No one to talk to
Best friends nor my lover,
I hold these feelings and emotions tight!

Such is the reality of reality
Undeniable and an honest fact
But to trust is hard
To love must come easy?...

Truth

A lesson I will never learn!!!

Black Hole

This sudden black hole
A strange feeling
Of far across the world

The faint voice does not cry
A heart that is heartless
But once cared a bit too much

Gloomy skies
Buildings after another
Small tunnels and horses

Alone but not lonely
A city that does not sleep
But the language of love it speaks...

You and Me...

I once met a wonderful man
on a cold night in February
a perfect gentleman
and we instantly hit it off
Then soon enough we started to fall in love

From that day until now
We've been in love
and he was all I could think of...

9 months later we got married
one of the days I forever will cherish
Since then every day is happiness...

My hero, my kryptonite
A true diamond in my sky!












Thank You for giving my life and true meaning and bringing out the sunshine.
You've accepting me for who I am with all my flaws and made me a better person with time.

My outlook on life has changed.
and I am lucky to have you to love everyday...

Reason

A sad soul is always up past midnight.

I think it is a miserable feeling in the world trying to sleep when you've got a million things running in your head and you tell your mind to stop and even your heart tells you to do so because it has seen and knows you better than you think. I may never understand why I would never be the best when I thought I was most important . It's true what they say "We accept the love we think we deserve" and no matter how far we try to drift away from this truth, the fear of neglect is far greater. Greater than the feeling of the unknown or even drowning, rape, betrayal or murder. I have started to differentiate between alone and loneliness. The heart has its own reasons that even reason does not know.

What would it take to be wrapped up in his arms?
I cannot understand nor can I be empathetic
But I try hard to feel this glimmer of hope waiting to be ignited.

There is no light burning brightly at the end of the tunnel nor is there a wickering flame from a candle nearby. Sometimes we expect more from others, because we would be willing to do the same for them. There will be a time when we must choose between what is easy and what is right as what comes easy won't last and what lasts won't come easy. And sometimes you realize that the only mistake you make is in caring too much.

I am only human.
I bleed when I am wounded
I ache when I am hurt
I crash and then breakdown.

So whatever I decide to do I am going to make sure it makes me happy for everyone I meet is fighting a battle and I know nothing about it so I chose to be kind always. Often people think that being alone makes one lonely but I've realized that it is not true. Most times, being surrounded by wrong people is the loneliest thing in the world.

There are two types of people in this world:
(1) Those who say "I will believe it when i see it:" and
(2) Those who say "To see if, I know i must believe it"

So as  i try to drift back to sleep past midnight, it is said that those who don't sleep confuse reality with dream... Who are you?

Tattoos and Inks

So, this is what my next tattoo is going to be or at least what i am hoping along with some roman numerals which has the wedding date or something very significant...

My first tattoo was in April 2012 when I was still in Vancouver. I went with my friend Cameron who was braver than I thought (ha-ha) to this place called "Adrenaline" on Granville street. This place has quite the reputation for good artists and the sketches :) So I took my chance and got a tattoo that reads "MITAGPA" which is the Buddhist Doctrine of Impermanence and he did a pretty good job I reckon. 

Not too sure where I am going to get my next one but right now i'm thinking on the inner arm area which is going to hurt I know from all the reads online and according to the tattoo pain guide but I think it is going to be worth it after I get it. I just have to contemplate carefully just like I did on the earlier one.

As Thich Nhat Hanh beautifully put it "You are like a candle. Imagine you are sending light out all around you. All your words, thoughts and actions are going in many directions. If you say something kind, your kind words go in many directions, and you yourself go with them. We are ...transforming and continuing in a different form at every moment..."