Bokeh Senses

I wish I didn't have to remember
A new memory each time to stand upon
Walking down this dreamy lane
Vivid images but emotions were honest

What If I never remembered?
Could it all be a blatant lie?
Perhaps a twisted dream slipping away
When all I want to do is wake up

Amnesia of it all
But I seemed to be fighting against it
This object I seem to be reaching out to
tingled my senses as I could feel the object so close

I told myself this was a dream
And that I shouldn't be feeling
For reality pinches hard
making you forget about these stupid things

For memories can never escape
No matter how far you seem to fall
This was only a dream
Another one to add to the list.

Happy Anniversary!

There was a man who swept me off my feet the moment I met him. It was definitely love at first sight, I fell straight for his personality, charm, charisma and the gentleman he was. The aura I felt when I was with him was unbelievable which made me doubt initially if this was too good to be true. But these doubts dissolved as that was just who he was and I was definitely lucky to have met him that one cold winter day...

When I met you, I knew immediately that you were the man I wanted to spend the rest of my life with and today I'm living that. Love often makes people do dumb and stupid things. It makes people vulnerable, make bad decisions and end up falling for the wrong person. You lose control of yourself and your clear thinking and I was afraid of all that at first. But when you came into my life, you made every step easier each time. I became a better person. You made it so much easier for me to let go of all that still haunted me.

Thank you for teaching me that there are good things that exists in this world and you've shown me that these good things can happen not only to everybody but to me as well. You've opened my heart again to feel the 'good' love and broadened my mind to see the good in others. I've learnt from you that it is okay to let go and do the things that I love if it makes me happy. I've learnt to be patient and appreciate you more for all that you do for me and everyone else. I've learnt to accept that your job requires you to work around the clock at odd days and hours of the week. Moreover, I still haven't learnt quite yet to sleep without you beside me when you're off  for several days on duty (Haha it's true).

Because of you I believe in love more than ever and sometimes when things unfold unexpectedly I'm optimistic that it is just for the moment because I know that loving you and being loved by you conquers all these minor obstacles. I'm happy that I've let my guard down with you and you are worth everything to me.

You are my 'Person' who changed me for the better.
You are my 'Person' who is my beacon of salvation.
You are my 'Person' who taught me to believe when all was running empty.

Thank You for saving me before I lost hope in Love.
Thank You for being the man I needed in my life.
Love you to the moon and back~

Mongolia

Beauty is undefined
Pristine and untouched
Truth holds the naked eye to the test
My roots to explore...

Distance in elevation
Seasons change sooner
Stars lighting up the sky
For tomorrow is a new day...

Breathtakingly in awe
Taking in every last air
The nomadic steppe lifestyle
Was more than just an experience

It found me and I found it
Realization,  guilt and gratitude
Rising above everything I held back
I could stand here gazing forever...

The dry yellow grass
Covered in sparkling rouge light
The sun rose and eventually the light faded
Every end called for a new beginning...

Mongolia: A trip out of the blue,
Gave me more insights
To life, People and behaviour
Than all the motivating books on my shelf...

I took this road less travelled
And it has made all the difference...

Crowded

Your words were my weakness
Straight and honest from the heart
Infinite letters did we write
You showed me through words the power of love.

Your voice was my weakness
Smooth and melted my heart
My best friend and lover You showed me it was possible to fall out of love.

Your lies were my weakness
Staged and blunt to my face
24 months of hidden agenda
You showed me through your lies the importance of honesty.

You are my weakness
My knight in shinning armour
I chose you: "Too good to be true"
You continue to show me what love is every single day...

Anger

This anger...
Heartbeat racing
Shortness of breath
I'm numb

Was it too soon?
Was it the way it's meant to be?
Surely I wasn't far sighted enough
To be thinking about it now

It's a crazy buoyancy called love
With an irrational equation
Of failures and successes
That lead this road to nowhere

Fictitious

We trapped our way through bliss
Unable to escape
All those feelings
Atleast I got some answers

Do you ever dream like this?
A reality show within a show
Truth denied by the dominating ego
I wonder how you managed to  escape

Afraid of what I might see next
I decided to wake up in consciousness 

Time of the hour was nine
Except the door was slightly open

Windows with no exits
One beating heart against the next
I could hear behind the doors
The Ignorance and denial
Of this affair which  happened only in my dreams...

49th Police Raising Day

First day of September and I went to attend the 49th Police Raising Day. Got recognition along with a few of my friends from Desuung for our contribution towards community service when His Excellency Modi, the Prime Minister arrived in the capital a few months ago.

It was a short and sweet celebration graced by the Chief of Police Kipchu Namgyel himself.