Sunday, 24 November 2013

Tattoos and Inks

So, this is what my next tattoo is going to be or at least what i am hoping along with some roman numerals which has the wedding date or something very significant...
My first tattoo was in April 2012 when I was still in Vancouver. I went with my friend Cameron who was braver than I thought (ha-ha) to this place called "Adrenaline" on Granville street. This place has quite the reputation for good artists and the sketches :) So I took my chance and got a tattoo that reads "MITAGPA" which is the Buddhist Doctrine of Impermanence and he did a pretty good job I reckon. 
Not too sure where I am going to get my next one but right now i'm thinking on the inner arm area which is going to hurt I know from all the reads online and according to the tattoo pain guide but I think it is going to be worth it after I get it. I just have to contemplate carefully just like I did on the earlier one.

As Thich Nhat Hanh beautifully put it "You are like a candle. Imagine you are sending light out all around you. All your words, thoughts and actions are going in many directions. If you say something kind, your kind words go in many directions, and you yourself go with them. We are ...transforming and continuing in a different form at every moment..."


Saturday, 23 November 2013

The Burning Candle


Some live the life which most people dream about. The lap of luxury, where everything goes right and there is neither trouble nor worry. But some live life so painfully as another day comes forth, another new fight and the struggle continues. Each day these people live towards this struggle and keep their hope hanging so that one day this would all be a dream rather than the harsh reality staring straight at their faces. They hear the screams of salvation calling from the heart with an open hand with day after day desolation but still there is no hope left for those who believe!!
There is a road which leads into these circumstances and down this road there are thousands of dreams awaiting and only opportunity can knock on the door. And this road is the one where the beggars and the choosers find their so called destiny from which they are saved in the light of faith for everyone to see.  This is when time passes by quick in the glimpse of a second and what’s left behind are the days of eternity where nothing else is left behind not even old souvenirs. For them the old statues stand still where it use to be and all one sees are the bleeding scars of humility, and hear the screams of salvation from this life calling from the heart.
It has been a long time ever since I saw such painful cries and the redemption of these people. This brings me back to the days I knew long before it even existed. The days which left me behind and went forth but now its over and it is time to vision things from a different light. Flashbacks of yesterday and faces of tomorrow still haunt me time to time and out of this desire I traveled miles high and low in search for what I have seen the world through these small eyes. For every living day I know it takes more energy out of me each time to see such suffering and discomfort to people in this world. As the candle burns I’ve learned one thing so far in my life to live your life but say a prayer for all that you’ve got and be grateful.
 And as the candle keeps burning pray for those who are less fortunate than how you have been with trust and honesty like you really meant it. Just follow your heart and swear by the ones that you love for it is a life for the taking that surrounds you which are full of liars and thieves. But it’s the truth that pulls you back to reality and through all the years and the painful tears; it’s been a mountain that I must climb. And for every living day it’s clear, I’ve turned a page in time. To live your life and say a prayer for all that you’ve got and be grateful for those.
-May 2007

Wednesday, 20 November 2013

Starry Night


Like Diamonds in the dark sky
A starry starry night
Shinning bright taking position
I stood in awe as I gazed upward...

They spoke to me in a language I somehow seemed to understand
At least for that very moment
Blinking endlessly trying to communicate..

Twinkle twinkle little star
How I wonder what you are...?
A burning sun? A planet or a speck of light
I can't tell just yet

You question my grounded beliefs
You even doubt my existence
Tonight I wish upon you
For infinite love and trust
So that I may start to believe again...

Sunday, 17 November 2013

Anger

...and then there is more to it!!!

What do you mean by "Do you really want to know..?"
Skeletons in the closet??
You told me already one type of tale
And had me believe it too
Now there is more???

Unsure of what it means
And not wanting to hear the plain truth be told
It seems that:
It is all a game of Chinese Whisper
With an imaginative story

I refuse to know anymore or ask!
Huuusa!!!!!

Tuesday, 29 October 2013

Workout

With my trainer gone to Bangkok to sit for a trainer certification course for almost a month, I'm trying my best to stay motivated and go to the gym as regularly as I can like he was there.
I was motivated and did legs last evening which was painful. Even without a trainer a fellow client of my trainer helped me get through the evening with lots of aches and oohs.
14 days until the big day and I continue to remain motivated to go to gym with everything else around me especially with the wedding preparations.


Friday, 11 October 2013

Fire Escape

Like constellations aligned on my body
etched round and red with bumpy markings
Of sensations that itch to be scratched
One, two and many more emerge
Sourced from the smallest black dot
that scavenge and move on...

I've seen the place and heard about it too
A distant galaxy far off in the woods
enclosed by vines and bushes
As moods go astray
like ivy on a high concrete wall
climbing to spread across the top...

A blaze firing at every direction
Out of control from the core
I see ladders and I'm slowly rising
Or was I descending
I couldn't tell for sure...

Everyone was hurt or burnt
Miraculously we survived without any scratch
An omen to what is yet to come
I am choosing to believe that:
Everything happens for a reason!


Wednesday, 2 October 2013

Story Part I

The Beginning

It was the year of the dragon, twenty four years ago that in the high altitudes of Laya there lived a little boy with rosy cheeks. He was the youngest child in his family along with an elder sister. When he was one years old, his father died while trying to save his family against the brutality of the feudal lords and his mother and sister did domestic labour around the neighbourhood as it was their only source of revenue. The little boy was born in the village of Gasa, located high along the snow peaked mountains which were only accessible by yaks. The population was barely a few hundreds and they survived mostly by eating yak meat, cheese and rice that were brought up from Punakha during the summer months by the local traders. And those who could afford would exchange their local produces with the Tibetans along the border through barter system for spices and other rations that are not found in Laya.

Ever since that day, the boy’s mother knew he was destined for greatness as his birth was surrounded by auspicious and superstitious beliefs. The entire village witnessed a full prominent rainbow was around the sun and even the thick misty weather suddenly cleared out bringing much desired sunshine and warmth. The clear blue skies above the entire Laya community spoke of a miracle birth of a high lama but however, they could be mistaken this one time.  

The boy’s mother was overjoyed as her son was born on this very day and thus decided to call him Gesar. Before the boy was born, the village barely saw any mothers giving birth to boys for a long duration of five years as most women had miscarriages during pregnancy which gave rise to high mortality rates in comparison to neighbouring villages.  And ever since the birth, the entire village of slowly started to progress forward. Their crops and vegetables started to grow and the entire village came together as one community rather than individualistic. Even though it took a few years for people to change, they started to live together in harmony where everyone was willing to help and be there for one another. Neighbours started to grow closer and families were extended.

But things didn’t stay this way for long and it wasn’t until Gesar turned eleven when the village was visited by a mysterious looking man. His clothes were tattered but similar to that of a gomchen*, the outer skin of his hands was darkish brown almost black in color while his palms were strikingly pale white prominently displaying the palm lines. The texture looked almost like leather but had more resemblance to an old man with dirty, long uncut nails. His face was scrubby looking, hardly shaved and his shoes had several holes in them from walking miles after miles and his bag looked almost empty. When the village people had gathered to welcome this man he declared himself as a paow* who foresaw into the future and came to warn the people of this tiny village.
He warned the village elders about what is yet to come and not to let any of their children travel outside their village until they turned seventeen as there would be huge consequences which the entire population would face and if the word of warning is not taken seriously then they would soon all perish to be non-existent. Soon after the entire village held a meeting and decided to put signs and build walls to protect their children and their village from the evil that was yet to come.
Gesar’s mother Dema was frightened of the thought of having Gesar grow up in this tiny village as education was scarce limiting knowledge and opportunities for personal growth. Her main reason to send Gesar to Punakha when he was fifteen was particularly the death of her husband Tobgay who was brutally killed by the feudal lords. It happened when the lords increased taxation and demanded surplus revenue from their family and when he spoke back to defend them without any mercy he was brutally killed.  

Four years passed by and Gesar was now fifteen years old. The warning soon became a tradition as only those who turned seventeen that year could leave the village. Some returned with tales about seeing the takin in Thimphu, some even brought back electronics that fascinated the elders while the rest only spoke of beautiful men and women whom they fell in love with. Gesar was no ordinary boy as he taught himself to read and write without attending school as the only nearby school stood at the foothills of the mountain passes behind the high inaccessible snowy peaks. Dema was worried for her son’s future as he was truly gifted; some even believed him to be a reincarnation of a high lama that passed away a few months before Gesar’s birth.  

Reverse Heart

Every conversation feels like a breakup And every poem feels like another goodbye What is the meaning of this? A constant reminder stuck in ...