The Mysterious Heart

I count the ways you let you down 

and I'm losing track on the numbers now 

Your clever words can't help you anymore

I am lost and disgusted
I tried to keep you close but you're slipping out...

 

When did the Rain suddenly become a Storm? 

Even you can't stand whats happening with us

We could have had it all

but the blame was always on me

and we strayed off course...

 
Holding back won't turn back time
Believe me, I've tried

even if I could turn back time, 

You'd still be the same

with your secrets and lies

running like a dog 

making me fight like a bitch too much...

 

You never believed in me and we fell apart

Soon you'll just be somebody that I use to know  

I was so happy after so long

I should have known it was all momentary

Our ship's gone down too soon

So I drowned myself before it could drown me...

 
They say it's always darkest before the light
And that's enough for me to try

I know I loved you

And I still do but now it's whatever you want

Your freedom and Peace of Mind 

for your Happiness I will walk away...

 

Even if I say that it's over now
Even if we want to move on somehow

Even if I wanted to walk away

I know it will be without any regrets

I was never good enough for you...

 

Whoever said that love was sweet 

drank a little too much whiskey

All the fairy tales bullshit me
I wouldn't change a thing about myself
'Cause from today self love starts...

Love is Pain

I have driven this road too many times
That even the curves and the bends are familiar with me.
The same feeling each and every time;
I'm way too good at convincing myself
that each time the road will be a different one...

Taking a leap of faith and unsure
if I am following my instincts;
or just going along with my heart without using my brain,
that usually seems to be the case
or it is my anger which drives us away?...

When two people fall in love
Its always one person loving the other more,
I knew only of the abusive love I was feeling.
Instead of seeing who I was as a person
And believing in myself more
I was stuck in limbo...


I believe in Fate, I believe in Destiny
Maybe we loved deeply in another life
that we found ourselves here now,
I want to grow with the decision but
Confused how to Love...

I Trust Myself
I Trust my Path and
I Trust my Intuition.
It's You that don't Trust me
Nor the Path we set out for ourselves...
 
Maybe I felt you more than life usually allows of me,
I don't know.
Maybe I never fixed what was broken inside of me,
I don't know.
I am not perfect, neither are you!
But I know I have it inside of me to Love...