Moonlight Beams

Had a dream last night about this place
a wide paved road leading up to a hill
silhouettes of trees often mistaken for shapes
with the bright moon beams glistening...

I found myself walking outside
along the road until it led to a dead end
the cold didn't seem to bother me nor my bare hands
for I knew I wasn't alone
even if I was talking to the moon...

Few lights across the mountain brightly lit
I looked up to the sky to see Orion's belt and the Pleiades star cluster
I stared up into the sky for a long time
However, I didn't end up seeing the shooting star!

Every bright moon has a dark side
Just as my skeleton came out from the hideout
I chose one particular heart to enclose it
For I too will be the keeper of your sagas...

They say that when you mess with love
You mess with the truth
This sudden explosion to chase shadows at night
through the starry eyes of comfort
Brought immense beauty to the moon beams...

Therefore, I chose to live in the moment of this lucid dream.

12

It's funny how people cross paths
I believe it all happens for a reason
Whether we met and will meet
Everything seems to be for à reason
Reasons that even the heart does not know 
But it sure makes one feel it's right
Atleast for the moment

As 12 years is no joke for estranged relationships
Not much of a writer Im guessing
But surely could listen on for hours
An old Nokia phone was all it took
And a cassette of recorded romantic songs
Letters were exchanged
Memories don't really serve me best
Walking amongst the pines with endless nervous conversations..

You accept things that you cannot change
For years have passed and life has moved on
Bringing forth something we must learn
That no matter the missing years we still remained the same
Like a comet pulled from its orbit
People come into our lives
But who can say if I've changed for the better?

And we may never met again
Would another 12 years would be a lifetime?
Whatever way our stories end
I know there is more love than hatred
More compassion and kindness
More helping hand than ignorance
And enough friendship to last a lifetime...

Bucket List *Istanbul, Turkey*

"Oh, the places I could travel and the countries I could see..."

My love to arrive at new destinations keeps itching at me more day by day. The fact that I sit in a small cubicle with no windows lets my mind wander to these destinations only possible for now with a computer or a phone that is connected to the internet. 

Today my wanderlust grew more towards an old Byzantium or Constantinople country known to modern day as Turkey. Known to be a transition of Asia into Europe and vice versa, Turkey holds very strong cultural relevance rich in history which makes the country one of my top places to visit.

For nearly a thousand years, this country stood as the last remaining outpost for the Roman Empire before it was finally conquered by Ottomon Sultan Mehmed II in 1453 expanding the Ottomon empire even further thus giving birth to the Republic of Turkey in 1923. This is sometimes also marked as the end of the middle ages. Today Turkey has its population almost 14 million and increases at an estimate of 400,000 immigrants per year.

Turkey is divided into seven geographical regions separated according to their climate, location, agricultural diversities, human habitat, topography, etc. Located on the Mediterranean, separated by the Turkish Straits, with the Black Sea to the north and the Aegean Sea in the west and the Mediterranean Sea to the south west.

Istanbul is one of the largest cities in Turkey, also ranked as the world's most populous cities and the world's 5th largest city proper. A former capital of Ottomon and Byzantine Empires situated between the two continents of Asia and Europe. Its commercial and Historical center lies on the European side and about a third of its population lives on the Asian side.

The name Istanbul colloquially is commonly held to derive from the Medieval Greek phrase meaning "to the city" and this is also how Constantinople was referred to by the local Greeks.

Some beautifully captured images of Istanbul from Google images :

and then the market images of colorful porcelains, spices, dried fruits and the local cuisine especially the donair and hummus which is my favourite:

Monday Blues~

Stuffy nose, head thumping
Shortness of breath, eyes closing
Temperatures increasing, tongue burning
Concentration losing, eyes watering
Feeling weak, bones aching
Double eye lids, sensitive eyes
Runny nose, no tissue

Small problems, big issues when you have a cold

Eyes never closing *_*

1 shot, 2 shot, 3 drink right
A feeling of complete Happiness and giggles
The warmth in such good hugs
Took me from a short walk to this enchanting neverland

Charmingly dressed in black
Swayed by the right kinda of mood
I stood out from the maddening crowd
A friday night of an unexpected encounter

With high speed road chase and comfort
Time wasn't of the essence even though the clock ticked slow
Without any second thoughts
It was definitely in the NOW

Blurry windows and heated spaces
The chill breeze was most deserving
Full bladder and headlights beaming
It was the most honest saturday morning

Intentions of clarity and perfect manners
Warmth of the heart was overwhelming
Was this the happiness I was yearning for?
Or merely a dream I was chasing out to?

If only everything that happened had a reason to it
A reason that would answer to this action
The circumstances I am braved to face
Would it only deconstruct what is being built

The state of consciousness was not the best ability to rationalize
The net I swung upon myself has no casualities but myself alone
A fight alone I was battling with myself
To kiss and go beyond this consciousness

That very night I dreamt again
Of a road to a cottage through the woods
Faces I recognized and shamelessly accepted
But would I see this face again?

Weekend Cleanse

Waking up and feeling a need of change in my thoughts and actions I headed up to the mountain~ The mountain of solace and solitude. The mountain where I went to seek refuge of positivity! The mountain where I practiced exhaling out all that was troubling me and inhaled all the positive energy. I trained my mind to think nothing more but to see the best in everything including people! I constantly reminded myself that negative people and negative attitude will not affect me anymore so I chose to step away but sometimes I find myself too weak in the heart. I guess this is what being human means.

I try to infuse my life with meaningful actions that make me happy and I believe that if I am happy, I can make others around me happy too. Usually I don't wait for things to happen but rather I make things happen as this is my now, my future so I make my own hope and don't wait for it to come to me. Dont get me wrong But I do believe in fate and what destiny may hold for me. 

So I walked along this path, a path led by butterflies in hope for this small change within. I spent some time observing the impermanence of life as the wind blew through the prayer flags. I stood at the edge of the cliff watching the stillness that stood below me.

Every single person that I meet, is somehow meant to be met for a reason (who knows what the reason may be) but I surely believe that Everything Happens for a Reason...~ 

Ollie M

You can never force yourself to love somebody you don't love

You can never try to fake happiness acting like you deserve

You can never pretend to act like it mattered when things get better

You can never ask for forgiveness for the things you deliberately did to hurt

You can never put the blame because you never cared in the first place

You can never be honest as all you did was take breath of lies after lies

You can never think for a moment that it wasn't real because this is not a dream

You can never be grounded because you're always up shaking your ego higher

You will never be who you want to be since you're aiming for the Oscars

You will never be forgotten like the tremors that hit the nation frequently

But someday , not today you'll make everyone's lives easier by not being in it...

AMEN!!!♧☆