Sparks Fly

On a cold wintry December night
exploring the red city lights,
I saw fire within you
and the sparks immediately flew.

A long winding road ahead
'Thinking out loud' with Ed Sheeran
This was not a temptation
But rather, I chose to be here.

So when you're gone tomorrow
Memories will I hold on to,
So kiss me gently
Under this thick blanketed sky.

With no second thoughts I gave it a try
You took the first step and I followed
Cold hands or cold ears it didn't matter
I was with you and you were with me!

Sitting between the stone block
Admiring the starless night
Minutes had turned into hours,
And then in that moment we were one.

Soft touch and tingling sensation
I looked at you and you at me
Gentle and honest were your eyes
And I never wanted to leave...

Bokeh Senses

I wish I didn't have to remember
A new memory each time to stand upon
Walking down this dreamy lane
Vivid images but emotions were honest

What If I never remembered?
Could it all be a blatant lie?
Perhaps a twisted dream slipping away
When all I want to do is wake up

Amnesia of it all
But I seemed to be fighting against it
This object I seem to be reaching out to
tingled my senses as I could feel the object so close

I told myself this was a dream
And that I shouldn't be feeling
For reality pinches hard
making you forget about these stupid things

For memories can never escape
No matter how far you seem to fall
This was only a dream
Another one to add to the list.

Imerence*

Why do you only appear in my dreams?
Drifting gently like balloons in the sky
fading away slowly with each blink
I wonder if they ever reach a destination

Maybe like wildflowers
they're meant to grow in different places
where people never imagined
leaving space for more

But then it's just a dream I had yesterday
and yesterday needs to be forgotten
like the waves washing ashore
no hope but only false promises~

The Universe and Me

This feeling...
The emptiness of a whole solitude
Heart falling in a matter of seconds
Suddenly trapped in a powerful wave
Moments disappear into this disease
Slowly eating every part of the body!

Simple things complicating life
The seed of love falters away
Truth buried deep within the sands
and
Life is beautiful for my own good.

The full moon and it's gravitational pull
I let it serenade me
weaving my thoughts together
unfinished and unraveled
It all collapsed helplessly.

Love is a wildfire
It burns so quickly
making darkness an unsung melody
refusing to applaud
The voice my tragedy
Ruining everything I love,

How do I  Love?...

Reason

A sad soul is always up past midnight.

I think it is a miserable feeling in the world trying to sleep when you've got a million things running in your head and you tell your mind to stop and even your heart tells you to do so because it has seen and knows you better than you think. I may never understand why I would never be the best when I thought I was most important . It's true what they say "We accept the love we think we deserve" and no matter how far we try to drift away from this truth, the fear of neglect is far greater. Greater than the feeling of the unknown or even drowning, rape, betrayal or murder. I have started to differentiate between alone and loneliness. The heart has its own reasons that even reason does not know.

What would it take to be wrapped up in his arms?
I cannot understand nor can I be empathetic
But I try hard to feel this glimmer of hope waiting to be ignited.

There is no light burning brightly at the end of the tunnel nor is there a wickering flame from a candle nearby. Sometimes we expect more from others, because we would be willing to do the same for them. There will be a time when we must choose between what is easy and what is right as what comes easy won't last and what lasts won't come easy. And sometimes you realize that the only mistake you make is in caring too much.

I am only human.
I bleed when I am wounded
I ache when I am hurt
I crash and then breakdown.

So whatever I decide to do I am going to make sure it makes me happy for everyone I meet is fighting a battle and I know nothing about it so I chose to be kind always. Often people think that being alone makes one lonely but I've realized that it is not true. Most times, being surrounded by wrong people is the loneliest thing in the world.

There are two types of people in this world:
(1) Those who say "I will believe it when i see it:" and
(2) Those who say "To see if, I know i must believe it"

So as  i try to drift back to sleep past midnight, it is said that those who don't sleep confuse reality with dream... Who are you?

Jet Plane

This is the end
A reason why goodbyes were even invented
It's not as hard as I thought

As I'm much stronger this time...

Honesty and expectation is the root of all evil
So you can't try to hurt me anymore...

Tomorrow,
A day when I'll be a better me
Renewed of my vows and promises
And when dawn breaks lose

You will be forgotten...

Amidst the thoughts and memories

11.10.12 will not be forgetten
Even the stars shine much brighter today
I'm sorry I never got the chance to know you,
For I am only a dreamer...