Weekend Cleanse

Waking up and feeling a need of change in my thoughts and actions I headed up to the mountain~ The mountain of solace and solitude. The mountain where I went to seek refuge of positivity! The mountain where I practiced exhaling out all that was troubling me and inhaled all the positive energy. I trained my mind to think nothing more but to see the best in everything including people! I constantly reminded myself that negative people and negative attitude will not affect me anymore so I chose to step away but sometimes I find myself too weak in the heart. I guess this is what being human means.

I try to infuse my life with meaningful actions that make me happy and I believe that if I am happy, I can make others around me happy too. Usually I don't wait for things to happen but rather I make things happen as this is my now, my future so I make my own hope and don't wait for it to come to me. Dont get me wrong But I do believe in fate and what destiny may hold for me. 

So I walked along this path, a path led by butterflies in hope for this small change within. I spent some time observing the impermanence of life as the wind blew through the prayer flags. I stood at the edge of the cliff watching the stillness that stood below me.

Every single person that I meet, is somehow meant to be met for a reason (who knows what the reason may be) but I surely believe that Everything Happens for a Reason...~ 

Ollie M

You can never force yourself to love somebody you don't love

You can never try to fake happiness acting like you deserve

You can never pretend to act like it mattered when things get better

You can never ask for forgiveness for the things you deliberately did to hurt

You can never put the blame because you never cared in the first place

You can never be honest as all you did was take breath of lies after lies

You can never think for a moment that it wasn't real because this is not a dream

You can never be grounded because you're always up shaking your ego higher

You will never be who you want to be since you're aiming for the Oscars

You will never be forgotten like the tremors that hit the nation frequently

But someday , not today you'll make everyone's lives easier by not being in it...

AMEN!!!♧☆

Labels

The wind outside is quieter than the racket inside
Do I look like a target to shoot on?
I come with an open heart
Leaving all feelings of resentment aside
And yet I find myself back to square one

A mother's love is never questioned
But only accepted as it is...
I've seen many and felt the warmth of a few too
But this one is really tough to compete

Money cannot buy happiness nor love
People are fools if they believe it to do so
Everything seems to be questioned
Ulterior motives and make beliefs
Superiority complex I cannot digest

Stubborn can and will I be
Just because I don't believe in your bullshit
Doesn't make me less of a human being
But only makes me rise higher!!!

Elite Reasoning

Withdrawing myself from all feelings
I find myself in complete solitude
Like a Venus fly trap I shut quickly!

But I do not expect your sympathy

Been alot of nights I look up to the stars
And wonder if u ever look up too
To those bright sparkles lighting the sky

Why must we pull back from our emotions?

This comfort I feel is empty without you
I do believe in certain things
But you have your opinions too...

4:08 am

I dreamt of you
I dreamt of us
It was so real so I reached out
4:08 on repeat
Unable to sleep

Just tell me that you want me
I'll return back into your arms
I've so many things planned for us
My whole world is better because of you
That's why I know you're the one

I was prepared for what was yet to come
Together I knew we could face anything
So I just had to find myself first
But I don't understand this cold silence
Why you chose that over me?

Free me from this rainfall of spring
For I will bloom like the gardens of eternity
This moment will come to take decisions
And Time will not wait for me nor you
So hurry up and break this cold cold ice!!

TOL

This silence was deafening
A hurt I should be use to
To be honest:
I dont think I could ever get use to it

Not even a cold shower could recall
It was me against the ages
Translucent white and a bar stamp
I came to know of this path

A path of low granny Smiths
Even if a black dog startled me
I wasn't going to be afraid
Because I didn't quite know!

GoodBye

So this is your Goodbye now? :'(

Rush of emotions
Everything I ever felt crumbled down
Loss of words unable to breathe
I somehow believed it was all real...

Is this how you say Goodbye?
With a pitcher of beer smiling at me!

"Forget me"..., he said
Words easy to whisper, Hard to digest
Where do I tuck away the memories?
This white envelope too thick to burn...

Hundreds of pictures of the same face
Broken promises and -forget me nots-
I thought i would be first at giving up
But Instead I held on...

Where does one bury their secrets?
From the plains to the hills
I want to keep exploring!

Dreams and Plans in the near future
But Who was I kidding?
For the thought of me will always exist
And you will never be alone...

I hate the word Goodbye
For it always ends the burning flame of hope
That spark ignited is lost
And faith in mankind will never be restored...

Goodbye!