The Search

The story of the bard who kept searching for his star to appear in the night sky reached the high and lows of this tiny village...
some said he was foolish to keep chasing the star while his closest friends saw  how much he longed for the star the appear...     
to the Ends of the earth he travelled... far north and extreme south following a glimmer of hope he held on to!! he trusted his instincts and followed his heart next towards the   west where he saw nothing before     finally turning towards the oriental east...           
with patience he waited for the spark to light up the sky and it eventually did with time! Just as the sun rose every morning from the east so did his love for this star began to grow!!
a new found love he discovered...somehow this time it was different and he knew it deep down as well. The star and him seemed to have a strong binding force which was beyond imaginable for any matter...
Step by step he thought he will wait for the star to take her form onto earth...that was exactly how he was going to plan his next move closer.
she came to him vaguely in his dream all in a blurr but he knew it was her as he'd seen her many a times before the curse took her far away into the galaxy!!  
One day at a time he patiently waited sleeping under the thick dark starry blanket.. night after night he stayed staring at the brightness of the star wishing she would come down so he could call her his own.. But she stood up there unreachable by him longing to be with him as well. Hope was slowly running out and he grew out of patience. when all hell almost broke loose within him a light blue spark  guided him into a forest.
trusting his instincts one last time he followed the light...                        
as he got deeper and deeper he saw the brightest light glowing. Getting closer to the light he saw her face in the most calm posture. Alas! the star had fallen and he gently embraced her like it was the first time he had ever seen her...   Sparks flew and the curse was finally broken, she finally found a man who waited to love her!
He picked her up and gently kissed her soft lips.  Now all he was waiting for was her eyes to open and see that she'd been set free...She was no longer hollow and her homeless heart was filled.

At the wrong Platform

I was standing at the  platform of a train station waiting for my train to arrive... the scene was busy, with endless number of people boarding on, getting off, and most were just like  me waiting for their particular train number to arrive as they sat on the benches.                                 
Time ticked by slowly. One second at a time. I looked at my ticket which read 49B, 11:13 hours, to the yellow brick road...
One arrived and the same one departed. The routine was too monotonous that I soon began to predict what I had observed as I sat there on the bench with music plugged in my ears.
After several trains I looked at my time it was 11:11 so I got my things ready and waited on the second  platform. Waited and waited until time went past faster than scheduled so I picked up my luggage and walked towards a uniform officer who directed me to the help desk by the entrance of the station.   
As I got there and explained how I was to get on the train to the yellow brick road the person behind looked at me sympathetically as if something had terribly gone wrong.  
Unsure and surprised I asked her what had been the problem .She looked up at me and said "Darling this is not a train ticket, but an airplane ticket..."                        
I couldn't believe that. All this while I was not only waiting at the wrong platform but I was waiting for the wrong mode of transportation as well..                                    
So I quickly took a cab to the airport but by then I had already missed my flight to the yellow brick road. So I cancelled and booked the next one out while my seat still remained the same at 49B...

Often I find myself writing great poems when I have sipped on some alcohol... :) Doesn't usually happen all the time but once in a blue moon I strike the emotional side of me and words keep flowing... when it happens I usually write because I have either found my muse or my thoughts are left wandering through the dead of the night.

Lonestar

Days like today
I think of what could have been
Loneliness seems to strike
And it's always you in the end
Unable to be together I wait...
Wondering if it's the best decision?
Wondering what if I never pull through?     
I've got no steady anchor
But I definitely got some soul
Meaningless and broken
Part of me is breathing
And half of me is left.
                                       
Why am I still searching?     
For answers when there are none.
Never thought it would feel so free
Now I know what's meant to be
And that's okay with me...

12.12.12

One of those nights yet again
Sleepless and tired in bed
And am left to wander
What it means to be haunted in ones dreams

The sudden feeling of realization
Or the slowly moving backward clock that refuses to tell time.
An uneasy feeling overshadowed the mood
As my breath got heavier and louder.

The heat started to get unbearable
But a picture was the perfect representation
of hungry and loneliness that that remained...

As light as the feather in between the leaves
they dried along cohesively with the season
Was it early this year?
Old memories that are overdue and expired
Need to be off the shelves in every store

Letting Go

As I separated one white balloon from the rest of the bunch

I held it close to my bosom,

I thought of the last few months 

and how life flipped suddenly topsy-turvy .

I took within all that I had into that Balloon 

my feelings and emotions...

Reasons that even the heart is not familiar with,

Feelings that shattered the tainted windows,

and emotions that were beyond my control. 

As I held it close

I realized that it must go up high into the air

Like the little kids trying to get theirs  to rise

except here their innocence is untainted 

so their un-carved block remains safe.

With much strength and a brave face

I let the balloon up into the air

and let the winds of change decide its fate...

Unexpected Encounter

This morning I awoke,
You brightened my day
You made me forget everything
As i was soon lost in your gaze
"Looking Good", I thought to myself...

You close your eyes and kiss me gently
But wait that was just a dream
Or what I wanted to believe at least
I lay there pondering
How had he noticed me?
In a rather crowded place...

It was a slightly longer hug
not wanting to let go and yearning some more
We said our goodbyes and rushed off in opposite directions

On a familiar road he embarked
Like a hero leading 17 troops
Fighting dusty roads staying calm
Fighting to get to the other side.
All this while thinking of his lady
To gain strength to continue
Into a territory strange to him

All he had of hers to remind him was a strand of hair
that fell on his shirt when they embraced for goodbye.

She was one step ahead in certainty
and one step behind in uncertainty
she longed to see him again
maybe day after as he said

He always made her feel the happiest
Especially when the sun didn't seem to shine...