What is the right feeling?

“You know that feeling when you’re just waiting, waiting to get home into your room, close the door, fall into bed, and just let everything out that you kept in all day, that feeling of both relief and desperation? Nothing is wrong, but nothing is right either, and you’re tired, tired of everything, tired of nothing, and you just want someone to be there and tell you it’s okay, but no one’s going to be there, and you know you have to be strong for yourself because no one can fix you. But you’re tired of waiting, tired of having to be the one to fix yourself and everyone else, tired of being strong, and for once, you just want it to be easy, to be simple, to be helped, to be saved, but you know you won’t be, but you’re still hoping and you’re still wishing and you’re still staying strong and fighting with tears in your eyes. You’re fighting.”

The next step

So i'm trying to improve on my writing skills and move the next story towards fiction~

We are studying family theories in class and how individuals are often met with conflict and therefore have to make a rational choices in order to stand their grounds and continue living. The results show that individuals actually maximize their profits and minimize their costs so when it comes to making decisions they weigh the outcome and then make their decisions. While some just live for the moment and not think about the future.

Anyways, i need some sleep for now~

T-Pain's new song: 5 O'Clock ft. Wiz Khalifa, Lily Allen

29th September, 2011. 

"Karma"

Third Charm

Usually it's said that the 'third one's a charm' but last night my third visit to the Italian restaurant of Trattoria on West 4th avenue was rather disappointing....
When Yeshey and I got there, Virginie and Aaron were already waiting for us by getting comfortable with a bottle of South African white wine, which i couldn't finish even 1/3 of the glass. Wine is not my forte as you can tell~

Then, we ordered the 'Anti Pasto' appetizers we always eat which had Egg Plant, Artichoke, Kobe Beef Balls, Mashed Potatoes, Patty, Salad, Mozzarella Stromboli, Crispy Calamari, Tiger Prawns and a few more i didn't know names to...

Then when the main course came, I ordered Spaghetti Fanciulla which had chicken, chick peas, eggplant peperoncino, garlic, olive oil. The waitress actually recommended it so therefore considering her knowledge of the food there i tried it. It turned out to be one of the most bland spaghetti's I've had this entire year not including the over cooked one i ate at Cafe Klein in Bhutan which was worse~ :( barely had 3 spoon fulls before i decided i'd indulge in dessert as they have great choice.

Not really a huge fan of fried banana's, i decided to try the classic Tiramisu... I was in a 'sweet' mood so was really looking forward to a great yummy dessert. Finally, when it came on my first bite itself i was disappointed. Either they took it out of the fridge before it was completed or they kept it out a bit longer than they normally should which made it watery and soggy...

So over all apart from the satisfactory food, the bill was a high $50 each and it was all worth it because of the awesome company of Virgine, Yeshey and Aaron.

 Virg, Yeshey, Aaron and Namzay @Trattoria, Vancouver

-29th September, 2011

Word for the Day

Dopamine:

a neurotransmitter that helps control the brain's reward and pleasure centers. Dopamine also helps regulate movement and emotional responses, and it enables us not only to see rewards, but to take action to move toward them. Dopamine deficiency results in Parkinson's Disease, and people with low dopamine activity may be more prone to addiction. The presence of a certain kind of dopamine receptor is also associated with sensation seeking.  

Less than a Globe Trotter

Places I have been in the world so far: 

ASIA

1. Thailand
2. India
3. Bangladesh
4. China
5. Japan
6. Taiwan
7. Korea
8. Hong Kong

EUROPE

1. France
2. Germany
3. Austria 
4. Luxembourg
5. Belgium
6. Netherlands
7. Liechtenstein

NORTH AMERICA

1. United States
2. Canada