Ahoy! They Sail~

UrbanToes

A Tall Ship out on the waters of Vancouver

A Sunny Sunday

The Inevitable Change

I find it rather strange and funny how often people enter my life and slowly they start to fade away just as as they begin to leave slight footprints...and yet again with time the footprints slowly fade away into vague memories only left behind to either cherish or store in a place where it is unreachable with time.

"No matter who you are, No matter where you go in life, at some point you gonna need somebody to stand by you... No matter how much money you got, all the friends you got, you gonna need somebody to stand by you..."


These are the words sung in collaboration by street artists on the streets of California, Louisiana, Brazil, Russia, Netherlands,Venezuela, South Africa, Italy all making music for a change they believe to be possible by bringing awareness of issues through music... It's hard to find friends who are more than just fair weathered these days if you have the tendency to move around much in your life.

I left for India first to St.Helens Convent in Kurseong, Darjeeling in Grade 5 and stayed there till 8 before moving to Kodaikanal in Tamil Nadu, India for another 5 years starting grade 8 due to the terms that started in different months. I found  friends and people there who started to know me more than my own family besides my sister as we would spend everyday with one another so it was comforting and we started to grow together. Then i moved to Canada for University and here i learnt how hard it was to make exceptionally close friends who knew you in and out like high school. I guess in a way its a learning environment where independent behaviour and Critical thinking are challenged and one has to learn to blend in...

Leopards never change their spots, as my mother use to keep telling me. I've come to understand this phrase very much now and with experience it stands out even bolder now with clarity. With every individual i come across and get to know them better, they tend to fall under this category of not being able to change 'let's say for the worse'. I've always believed firmly that no matter what the situation, we humans can never change especially as adults as our thoughts, beliefs, opinions tend to mature and mould us into the character and personality we take upon today.
I've always thought change was temporary BUT now i believe that Change is definitely inevitable!

The Pink Sky...

I woke...dreaming we had broke, dreaming you left me for someone new and you cried, drying those brown eyes, crying you're sorry...But sorry won't do!
But this is the way I need to wake, i'll wake to you and you never left me, all that i dreamt had been untrue... Open my eyes, I see Sky~

The Pledge~

In this world there are many different types of people. In all that mix, there are some who love to travel all around the world in search of themselves. But soon reality checks in for them and they realize that the only steps that they ever really needed to take were the ones from our head to our heart: the shortest step into realization indeed!! While on the other hand there are some of those who search for themselves without even having to take a step outside their homes. 

We don't have to go anywhere to find out who we really are but rather just light the spark within ourselves into realizing that...I know so many people including myself who have searched for ourselves and questioned "what does it mean to be you..?" and often found searching in a different direction. But the past year, i've come to realize that i didn't need to go anywhere to know who i was or ask who i was as the answer was right there in front of my eyes.
It came down to: It was 'ME' who could know exactly who i was, what i was feeling or what i wanted...No one else could have made those decisions for me. I know i've been indecisive my entire life, swaying in any direction due to my weakness in not being able to say NO to anything but rather helping out every single one that came by. And then people started taking advantage of me, and that's when i decided that a prominent line must be drawn and i should know when enough was enough!!So i did and went after what made me happy, what i enjoyed doing and what i felt like eating instead of being suggested all the time to do this/that or even told what to do next. Just as you think you could get use to this lifestyle, one must realize that this is not the right way even though one may feel the situation to be normalized but i've experienced this and it's everything but normal. 

So today i pledge to be more than the average individual and not to get  (angry/scared/depressed/anxious/worried/insecure/jealous/scared) but rather be happy and take a moment every single day to pause and appreciate life... and for being able to breathe with the blessings of life that most people tend to take for granted!